I hang all my hope upon the cross with Christ. In the cross I see the vileness of my sin and I see the lengths to which Christ must go to expunge the wickedness from my heart. I see his willingness to take the brutal scourge that I deserve and the absolute inability within me to clean away even the smallest stain of sin. I see his love, what wondrous love, and I see my pride, what wicked pride. The cross of Christ is not where I look to feel better about myself, through the cross I see myself as I really am. Instead, looking to the cross reveals to me Christ as HE really is, the merciful Savior, my Redeemer, my Rescuer. All my hope is in him!
And as I looked upon that corpse [of Jesus], I heard a footstep, and wondered where it was. I listened, and I clearly perceived that the murderer was close at hand. It was dark, and I groped about to find him. I found that, somehow or other, wherever I put out my hand, I could not meet with him, for he was nearer to me than my hand would go. At last I put my hand upon my breast. “I have thee now,” said I; for lo! he was in my own heart! The murderer was hiding within my own bosom, dwelling in the recesses of my inmost soul. Ah! Then I wept indeed, that I, in the very presence of my murdered Master, should be harboring the murderer, and I felt myself most guilty while I bowed over His corpse, and sang that plaintive hymn: “Twas you, my sins, my cruel sins, His chief tormentors were; each of my crimes became a nail, and unbelief the spear.” My sins were the scourges which lacerated those blessed shoulders, and crowned with thorns those bleeding brows. My sins cried, “Crucify him! Crucify him!” and laid the cross upon his gracious shoulders. His being led forth to die is sorrow enough for one eternity; but my having been His murderer is more, infinitely more grief, than one poor fountain of tears can express